I Want To Be Free !!

I want to dance naked in the rain..
I want to feel the water slide down my body
as I raise my hands in surrender..

I want to laugh at the winds and
feel the breeze in my hair against my face..

I want to climb mountains and look at the scenery,
have it take my breath away..

I want to make love on the beach with white sands, 
and feel the grains against my nakedness..

I want to see a double rainbow,
and know that everything will be okay..

I want, I crave, I yearn for so much but I'm held back,
I want to be free...

Structures of mind !!

I feel that how we perceive things is very much dependent on our minds or rather moods. Today for the first time I saw a kid getting happy when the balloon in his hand exploded. In general what will be seen is that children get sad or start crying when such thing happens.

So how we train our minds is really very important.  Happiness is not stored at some destination it lies on the path . Take it up . Never try to compare yourself with people. And try that as far as possible you remain not selfish because it is good, it feels good. Life is beautiful and we can make it more beautiful if we change our focus from somethings to others.

So try being you, the person you were meant to be....

Things that i should do to create the person i was truly meant to be:

1. Let go of my fears and just do it. Leap off the edge into the unknown and just try as
hard as i can to do my god damn best.

2. Follow my passion and happiness will follow.

3. Practice Music!!

4. Remember to thank people and telling them that they made my day and how much i
appreciate them.

5. Don't be so gullible.

6. Be more admirable.

7. Make other people happy but also don't forget about making myself happy.

8. Don't ever stop dreaming!

9. Always be genuine don't ever become cynical.

10. Be there for other people just as much as they are there for me.

11. STOP OVER THINKING EVERYTHING!!!!!

12. Let people in.

13. TRUST

14. LOVE

15. Have more faith in myself.

16. Have more faith in others.

17. Show emotion, stop hiding it, don't be afraid to feel.

18. Don't take everything to heart all the time.

19. Don't ignore your options you never thought were you had.

20. Live a little :)

Are we Rational ???

Are we rational beings or in other words do we have rational thinking ?  I doubt it !! :O
If we consider our mental process we are thinking about stuff that we do not want to think about
and we do not have much control over our thoughts infact  the one which we want to avoid
they struck even more. So are we truly rational? Can our thinking be explained as rational
thinking if we consider an average human being?

Our brain has infinite capabilities but a major part of that is wasted in foolish
activities still we call ourselves rational.

May be it is the absence of any other creature that has a better thinking and intellectual
capabilities that forces us to think that we are rational.

What do you all think about it ???

What makes you Stronger ?!

"What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." ~Friedrich Nietzsche.


I never used to understand that saying. I mean how can we become stronger from something that almost killed us? Maybe that was because I had not truly experienced the type of struggles in life, that makes one question if they can actually continue on. Recently I experienced that sort of inner conflict, where my whole world felt like it was all collapsing on me. I always wondered "Why is all this happening to me?" I questioned myself and God. I thought God didn't give you more than you could handle and here it seemed he was just piling it on one brick at a time. Pretty soon I would collapse under the pressure. It seemed like it anyway. Then I started to read "Chicken Soup for the Soul." The stories were not only inspiring but also helped me to put things into perspective. I needed to really love and have confidence in myself. All of these things that were happening where challenging, but it was my reaction to them that made them 10 times worse. I had to put that aside for the moment. I hadn't been as strong as I normally was. I was hit with a realization that if I wanted a career in that field I would have to take college more seriously. I made me pull my socks up. Through it all though what I learned most was to look within myself and to genuinely trust in me. There are struggles everyday, everyone goes through them, if you are strong within yourself you can handle anything. Then it has passed you can look back and say I survived that, and learned a lesson as well.


I've learned that you have to forgive. That is one of the most important traits to have. Because when you hold on to things, such as anger, resentment, or hurt it's like you are being weighed down by these negative feelings. When you let these things go and forgive someone it's like letting the shackles loose. In the past I was the queen of holding grudges. I don't know exactly why I did it. Maybe it was my way of getting back at the person that I felt wronged me. I remember people telling me when you forgive, you feel free. I thought that it didn't make sense. "How could forgiving be good for me?" I just didn't get it. Then one day it just clicked. I loved and lost and, still wanted to be friends I had resentment and sometimes it pops up now and then. But I decided to forgive, and it was this amazing feeling of lightness. Like 40 lbs of weight was lifted off my shoulders. This was strange. I forgave and then felt better. There must have been something to all those sayings from years back. I felt so good. When you hold a grudge for someone, that person is constantly on your mind and you are spending a massive amount of energy thinking about them when they probably aren't even thinking about you. Don't get me wrong it's a process, especially for a self proclaimed grudge holder but as I said when you let things go YOU feel free. That's what I want to be I don't want anyone to be holding me back from being the best me that I can be....

If I wasn't so alone !!

I'm sitting in a crowded room,
With voices all around..
But I've never felt more alone,
Even with all the sounds...

Faces are friendly,
Their intentions aren't bad...
I just don't fit in here,
And that makes me sad...

I do like staying here,
Answering phones...
It just would be better,
If I wasn't so alone...

Up In The Clouds...

I'd rather be up there

than down here

they say when you fantasize

you fail to realize

the blatant truth...

But it hurts too much 

feel like i'm getting crushed

what i see is a storm

threatening to keep me torn

keeping me there til i cry...

but up in the clouds

i am found

don't have to suffer

this dream is a real bluffer

but here i am content...

They critisize how i feel 

about what is and what's not real

but up in the clouds

my mind's at ease, im at peace 

Now i can breathe...

Even though it's not real

I get to escape for that moment

drift from the harsh reality

back into fantasy

because it's easier for me ...